Monday, May 17, 2010

Why Do I Always Get This Way?

Tonight at Family Home Evening, my aunt, who has brought her girls to our family's FHE for years and years, announced that all three of her daughters (ages 23, 21, and 19) are pregnant. None of them are married, but two DO plan on marrying the fathers of their babies soon.
I'm just bummed. I know that life isn't fair, I get it, I truly do, but why them? I am a faithful daughter of my loving Heavenly Father, I try my best to do what's right, I'm married in the temple....why not me?
(Yes, it's a pity party...)
After my aunt announced this, she turned to me and said it was my turn. I only WISH it was that easy. (To be truthful, we've been trying for another baby for a while now....I wasn't too concerned about it, but when I hear news that others are getting pregnant SO easily, or what seems to ME to be easily, I freak out a little.)
I'm going to be a booger for a while, don't mind my mood...it will pass, but for now, I'm a bit bitter and upset.

4 comments:

Jewelle said...

I'll join your pity party. I had 12 friends pregnant that are having babies in the next 3 months or so. We had been trying LONG before the first one announced the were pregnant. It is hard to have to sit back and wait for "our turn" I guess it is one of the challenges we signed up for in heaven. :(

Emily said...

Keep the faith sister! You are a wonderful lady and Heavenly Father is aware of all you trials and heartbreaks. We have been in your shoes for a short time and I feel for you. It is hard to be on that side and not let others get to you. If they knew your heart, they would be more sensitive to what they say. Hang in there and remember the Lord loves you.

stevie kay said...

For serious? All three? That's so sad for them. I love my children dearly, but I can't imagine bringing them into the world without having a stable life and husband to help.

And sad for you that more babies haven't made their way into your life. It's so little comfort, but I know the Lord loves you and is aware of your situation! Sometimes my mantra just has to be "He make everything right . . . one day" Hopefully your one day is sooner rather than later!

Jen said...

Hang in there! I know how hard it is. My fertility struggles are something that I don't frequently talk about, but I know how hard it is to hear others announce their pregnancies while you stand back and keeping praying and hoping. You are in my prayers!!