For those of you who know me only online, I have a secret to share with you, I'm fat! Yes, I'm HUGE!! There are days I look at myself in the mirror and think, "If only I knew where the skinny lady in my head lived..." Yes, I may be fat, but in my head I'm thin and can do ANYTHING!
I know that my weight has been part of what has been holding me back baby-wise, but if someone were to point that out, I have a hard time admitting it.
A few weeks ago, that pain came out in a very awkward way.
I have a playgroup that I take Cameron to. The fun part about this "playgroup" is that it's also a fun time for me to sit and talk with other women who are struggling with the same things I'm struggling with.
A few weeks ago I had mentioned my infertility problem. After I had told my whole story to these women, I was bombarded with "friendly advice." What I didn't know was that two of the women felt like they could offer me advice because they are experts. The first one is a nurse. She told me that if I lost some weight I would be able to get pregnant NO problem! Since I felt like I had opened myself up for this type of criticism, I kept my mouth shut. But in the back of my mind I KNEW that this would be the advice she would give. It's not like I live in a bubble of perfect-life....I KNOW that my weight is holding me back. After her schpeal, another woman jumped up and offered her expertise: dietitian.
This woman told me what would be good to eat, and what wouldn't. She gave some very helpful hints, but nothing that I hadn't already heard before. What I FELT like saying was, "Thanks, but NO thanks."
If losing weight was easy, do you THINK I would be in this body?? Do you think that I would purposely CHOOSE to be the way I am?? (The worst thing about their advice?? They're both SUPER skinny, like they've been thin their whole lives, excepting pregnancy, and it's just SO easy!)
I thought that after this ONE playdate that the subject had been addressed, and no more mention would be made....unfortunately I was WRONG!!
Last week the nurse said to me, once again, "If you lost the weight you could be pregnant." I just wanted to smack her. (Not that I did, but I REALLY wanted to!)
Why is it that people who know NOTHING of your situation feel the need to offer unwanted advice?? How can I approach this woman again, I KNOW she will be at the next playgroup, but I really don't want to start a fight or anything....
I'm just really feeling my weight right now....but don't tell me to lose it, because I just might cyber-smack you!