Feel Like Rubbing It In??

I can't even believe that someone would do that, but it's true.

Here's the background story:

My brother-in-law, Andrew, and his girlfriend, C, are pregnant. They had their big ultrasound on Monday. You know, the one that tells you whether it's a boy or a girl?

Now the story with Andrew is that he and C don't have ANY plans at this time to get married. We all voice our disapproval to him whenever we talk to him, but it's not like we're going to change his mind.

Andrew and C found out that they are going to have a little boy. At the beginning of next year Steve and I will have a new little nephew in our family. We are MORE than thrilled about this baby boy, but we are frustrated with his parents' choices.

My background story:

Steve and I have been trying to get pregnant for the past 5 years!! FIVE YEARS is a LONG time!! Let me tell you, I measure most of the last 5 years in negative pregnancy tests. I can tell you how heart-breaking it is to see a single pink line....60 TIMES!! I've gotten to the point where I'm literally AFRAID to pee on a stick! I will avoid it at ANY cost!! ANY COST!!

Within those last 5 years, I've had many MANY growing Spiritual experiences. I will share one with you now, but please don't think that because I'm sharing it I take it lightly, because it's VERY special to me. To show you my FULL frustration, I feel that I need to share it. During one experience I felt VERY strongly that I will have more children, and one child in particular stood out. It was a beautiful little boy, and his name is Jacob. This little boy WILL come, someday, but I have to wait. I KNOW that his name is Jacob, and I have plans (that Steve is FULLY aware of) to name our next son, Jacob.

Final piece of background information:

Steve and Andrew are the ONLY children in their family. It's just the two of them....no other siblings!

When Andrew told Steve the news about his baby, Steve asked him what they plan on naming this new little boy. Andrew told Steve that they won't tell his name until after he is born. Which is FINE! In fact, if I had Cameron's ultrasound to do over, I wouldn't have told Steve's parents the name we had chosen....because of their input we named him Cameron....NOT Matthew like we had wanted!

ANYWAY, while Steve was talking with Andrew I very loudly said, "Don't pick Jacob!" Steve asked him if he heard me, and he said he had, but then he paused and said, "Too bad!"

*rub rub*

They have been considering that name!! In fact, from the sounds of it, it was the name they WANT!!

Andrew has heard my experience with Jacob, he knows my feelings about it, but chooses to be a stubborn idiot!!

His blatant refusal to leave this name for us feels like he's rubbing my face in the fact that he and his girlfriend are pregnant, but I and Steve are NOT! I just want to cry!! It FEELS like this person, who, in his own disregard for ANYONE'S feelings, has stomped on my heart!!

The thing is, even if Andrew and C name their son Jacob, I will STILL use that name for my next son! So the children on that side of the family will be Cameron, Jacob, Jacob! I don't really care!! It was my name first, and he can just go take a flying leap!!