Thursday, August 31, 2006
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
- Singing a happy upbeat song! (like I described before!)
- Being around happy people. My parents fed the missionaries tonight and they were SO cute and bubbly! They just made me laugh!
- Cuddling with a sleeping baby...and managing to nap! (totally did that today!)
- Blowing HUGE bubbles with bubble gum.
- Getting a phone call or random email from a friend whom I haven't seen or heard from for a while. (hint...hint...)
- Eating FRESH cucumbers from a garden!! YUMMO!!
- Noticing the leaves on the trees turn from bright green to yellows, oranges, or browns. I absolutely LOVE everything about autumn-time! The fresh smell of the air...the coolness of the evenings...the new school year...
- Getting a blessing that is needed! (did that last week!)
- Going to the Temple.
- Watching a good movie...(for Family Home Evening last night we went to the temple visitor's center and watched the new Joseph Smith movie...LOVED it!)
- Cuddling under a blankie on my couch watching indulgent shows! (I watched ER this morning...all by myself...well, except for baby J, but he was sleeping the whole time so he didn't count!)
- Remembering the funny things I did as a teenager. I was following close behind a potato truck the other day and totally reminisced about the time I went to a dance (girls' choice) and we rode "in style." My friend had her uncle drive us in the back of his potato truck. We had a couch and just laughed and had a FUN time!
- Reading uplifting blogs! (There are SO many and I know that I'm guaranteed a smile when I read certain ones!)
- And I can't forget getting a haircut when it's desperately needed! I so LOVE my new 'do! (Again...I haven't got the pics yet...I've actually slobbered all over my shirt and don't really want you to see me THAT way!)
What things make you happy? Let me know! I'm determined to have a good week! No more poo-pooing my life...I have a great life, and it's time I appreciated it MORE!
Monday, August 28, 2006
Sunday, August 27, 2006
My friend, Carrie, gave me the idea for the singing time olympics. When I read that idea my mind just went NUTS!! I've got it set up so that not next week (I'll be out of town), but the NEXT week we'll be starting. I've printed off score cards for the primary presidency to use to score the singing...from one to ten. Once we get a score for a song we'll keep track of the points. I'll make up a cutsie poster that tells the kids what their scores are, and we'll have the junior primary compete against the senior primary. I'm even thinking about having some extra events...like standing and sitting on command from the conductor.
At the end I wanted a prize for the winner, but I didn't want the losers to feel bad either. So I was telling the primary presidency about it and they suggested making mini-medals for the winners. I was thrilled to get the idea. So the winners will be getting a gold candy on a ribbon that they can wear around their necks, and the "losers" will be getting a silver candy. I'm SO excited about this that I can't even tell you!
Today was my end of month game day, and to add extra fun to the game I pulled out my celestial singing chart. It has a sun, moon, and star on it. The songs are on individual stars and however well they sang was how high on the chart the star was placed. They sang SO well knowing that they were being judged. It was fun. The funny part was when we started reviewing "Holding Hands Around the World." I tried to jog their memories by saying the first words of the song...just to get them remembering the song, and I totally messed up! The pianist helped to remind me of the words, but I STILL forgot the words. It was just a disaster! I almost completely forgot the words to the verses! I definitely need to review! The kids loved that I was messing up though...they knew the words and thought that it was funny that they were doing better that me. So I managed to turn my mistake into a fun learning experience!
Church was so good today. The speakers gave really good talks about perspective...and not comparing yourself to someone else. I have such a hard time with that! I compare myself constantly! It's one of those habits I really hope to break. The lady that spoke compared it to everyone having a peg-board. Everyone has different pegs in their boards, and you can't say, "Well, I've got 3 pegs that she doesn't have...I wonder what's wrong with her." Because she may have 20 pegs elsewhere that you don't have yourself. I thought it was a really good analogy!
I've been going to church by myself for a while because Steve has been working graveyards on Saturday nights. I HATE it, but I deal with it. When I'm at church I feel like I'm a single parent (even though I'm not!) It is SO hard. I really admire those parents who have spouses who either aren't members of the church or those who are inactive and yet they go diligently every week. I'm very impressed with their dedication. I'm just glad I only have to do it for short periods of time! Today two people came up to me asking how Steve was. (One was a member of the bishopric.) I told them that he's been working graveyards and is just sleeping. If he wasn't working those shifts he'd be at church. They both seemed relieved that he's not just becoming inactive. Personally, I'm relieved too. I can't wait for him to stop working these horrendous shifts! I miss my husband...and play practice hasn't even started yet!
Saturday, August 26, 2006
When you look at this picture do you think, "Gee, that looks like a sweet boy!"? You should, because that's what he looks like, but hidden beneath this sweetness lies a defiant monster!
We've been trying out a new thing with Cameron. He's such a spoiled rotten child that he's gotten really sassy and ornery with us. He's constantly telling us, "NO!" or "I don't wanna!" But all I hear from his teachers and others who work with him is that he's a fun boy and that he's really good. They even tell us that he listens to them! Why can't he do that with us?
Anyway, we've started a new system and it looks like it will work. I've made up a chart with specific goals that I want Cam to accomplish (obeying parents, being nice to others, not whining....) and every time he does something that falls within one of those categories he gets a sticker on the chart. Once he gets at least one sticker next to each goal (there are like 6 areas) he'll get some candy. If he fills a row with stickers, then he gets to play his computer game. He still hasn't earned any candy yet, but he's REALLY close. We got this idea from the Learning Center. They have goal charts all over the place, and we figured that if it worked for them, then it could work for us. I'm even going to make up a chart for the 2 year old that I watch. I'm actually thinking about modifying it so that he has the rules written next to the chart, and when he fills a row he gets candy, when he fills 2 rows he'll get to play on the computer. It's still a work in progress, but it seems like it's sinking in.
For a long while now we've been trying to teach Cam to be nice to animals and to other kids, but he just doesn't seem to care! I'm hoping that with this chart it will make him think before he does something.
Today I had a fun morning. My cousin got remarried and I was able to be there. He looked SO happy and I'm glad he married the gal he did. They are so cute together! So in love!! Awww!! His daughter waited for him to come out of the Temple this morning and as soon as she saw him she hiked her dress up, began running toward him squealing, "Daddy!" and took a flying leap into his arms. It was so sweet. His new wife just looked on with a huge grin on her face, and tears streaming down her cheek! I love it when things work out for the best!
They had an open house last night since they took off immediately after the ceremony to Boise for the other reception. They had asked my mom to help serve, but she has date night EVERY Friday night and asked if I could do part of it for her. So I was helping serve. I had a good time, catching up with my cousins on the recent gossip. I was in the kitchen fixing up some plates when my other cousin came running in saying, "Dawnyel, you HAVE to come see this!!" I finished up quickly and hurried to the gym to find my son dancing with my cousin's daughter. They were slow dancing. It was so sweet. Cam even spun Eisha a couple of times and she flourished her dress to make it look fancier! It was the sweetest thing I've seen in a LONG time! I was upset that I didn't have a camera. Hopefully I can get copies of it from my cousin! It was so precious. The whole way home Cam was telling me that he was dancing with Eisha and she was his friend. He had a blast, and I was impressed he knew how to dance like that! He really has a good sense of rhythm!
There are times like this when Cam can be so sweet, and hopefully with this new reward system, those things will happen more often!
Friday, August 25, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Get second baby.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Monday, August 21, 2006
Anyway, as we started off, I noticed my visiting teaching partner walking her daughter to school as well. I thought, "This will be cool...having our kids together!" We walked to the classroom and Cam kept asking me if they really needed him at school. He's always been an inquisitive child, and when he asks us why daddy has to go to work our response is, "Because they need him there." So he thinks that school is his work, and that they need him there! I reassured him that they DID need him and we walked into the room which was FILLED with students, parents, and aides. I saw some kids who clung to their parents for dear life, and others (like my son) who found their seat and waved good-bye to their parents...all grown up! We dropped of the community supplies (aka: school supplies) then we hung up empty back packs and found our way to the school's library. Most of us were BRAND new as kindergarten students' parents. I think MOST of the kids are the oldest ones and that's why we all were new to this. We talked with the principal (still don't know if I like her or not...), filled out forms, and made sure that our kids were ready to continue their start into kindergarten.
We actually didn't do too much, so after the "open house" was over we all sat in the hallway and waited for our students to finish up their evaluations. I don't know if I explained it very well, but what the deal is with the unknowing which session they're in is this: the kids were tested today to see where they place on early reading tests. Those tests were evaluated to see what percentile they're in, and then the classes were arranged with equal numbers of kids who are high on the scale and low on the scale...to make for a more BALANCED class.
When we were all crowded into the library I checked to see if I had turned in the proper papers for Cam to be in school and the secretary showed me the paper. Next to Cam's name it had "AM." She asked me if I still wanted him in the AM session, and I agreed. She told me that unless something major happened, he would most likely be in that session since I had requested it. PHEW!! What a relief that was!!
I ended up talking with some other parents and we all were nervous for our kids and hoping they were all getting along well. After a very LONG hour (time really does change when you are anxious!) the kids came out, found their parents and backpacks and the day was done. I talked with both the principal and the teacher to tell them that the in-class aide situation was in the works, but that the aide couldn't start until NEXT week. They both thought that was okay, and reassured me that he would be just fine this first week without an aide. This week will be mostly spent on further testing of the kids to see what they know and what needs to be worked on. I can't believe all the stuff kindergartners have to do now! I just remember coloring, playing with toys, and having fun...now they work, work, work! I certainly hope Cam makes it through all that he's expected to get through! (Can you tell I'm WAY more nervous about this than Cam is!?)
Overall I wasn't that worried about him leaving...just him being left behind the other kids. Having a child who isn't developmentally up to date with his peers is hard!! Especially for someone like me who is so perfectionistic. I guess I just have to let him learn and grow at his own pace and not worry too much about it. But it's going to be hard!
I did get the news I wanted...he WILL be in the morning session!! YAY! Now we'll just have to figure out the babysitting situation. More stress to come!!
And now, as a special treat for reading my extra long blog, that cartoon I TRIED to scan two weeks ago, but now all colored and pretty...and READABLE!! :)
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Friday, August 18, 2006
They had all sorts of fun stuff going on. They were selling the crafts the children had been making all summer, they had a raffle, they were selling food and goodies, and they were having a silent auction. We walked along the tables with the auction items on it when we came to a cool gift certificate for a family photo shoot worth $130! Figuring it was worth a shot, we bid $5. As the night got along we ate and watched as more and more people were bidding on the items. I noticed that there were 3 gift certificates for the same photographer and each one was getting a little higher and higher. After we ate I made Steve stand by the paper and babysit it...I really wanted to win it! We stood and guarded it until they announced that the bidding was over,"Put the pens down and step away from the tables. It's over!" At that point we had won that particular item with a bid of $7!! How can you beat that!?
We sat down with everyone else and watched some slide shows of what the kids did that summer and waited for the winners to be announced. We went through the entire thing without hearing our names. I was thinking, "Uh...we KNOW we won that bid...we babysat the sucker until the bidding was FINISHED!! What's up?"
Apparently some guy wandered by and noticed a LOW bid on ours. Thinking it wasn't NEARLY high enough, this guy put HIS name under ours with a higher bid!! CHEATER, CHEATER, PUMPKIN EATER!!! As Steve was trying to figure out what had happened, the guy admitted that he signed AFTER the bidding was over. His wife MADE him turn it over to us...with our lowly $7 bid!
I was really excited about it! I went home and checked out the photographer's website and now I'm EVEN more excited! They take AWESOME pictures!! I can't wait to get it done!! I'm just going to get a haircut before we do, then I'm going to schedule it! I'm a winner...I'm a winner....I'm a winner!!
And now, I'm off. My parent's company is having their company party tonight and they've invited us. Unfortunately Steve has to work graveyard tonight, but I don't...so I'm going! It should be fun! See all of you later!
Thursday, August 17, 2006
One night I was sleeping peacefully in my messy bedroom when I woke up for my nightly potty run. Imagine in your mind a room that was so cluttered with clothes, toys, and papers that the piles were the same height as the bed. (Yes, I was a pig! But I'm not that way anymore...I swear!) Anyway, I got up and wandered to the door only to find that the door was not there. Instead I found a wall. Of course I first thought that I had flipped around in my bed, so I wandered in the opposite direction, hoping to find my way out. Instead, I found another wall! That time I was scared! I knew that I had been abducted by aliens, and was now their captive! My over-active mind knew that they had placed me in a holding cell until they could get around to dissecting me.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
WARNING!! I'm talking about something that may be sensitive for some, and totally disgusting for others...Reader, beware!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Cam has to see the geneticists in Salt Lake every year now because he was diagnosed last year with NeuroFibromatosis. His form of it is very mild. He has no tumors, but he has multiple cafe au lait spots. I see more of them everytime he takes a bath. I'm going to be asking them if it's cause for concern or not and he'll also be having his eyes checked by their opthamologist. They only have genetic clinics on Tuesdays, so he'll be getting out of school for a day. I'm not sure if he's up for that or not, but it doesn't REALLY matter...he's going to be missing school whether he likes it or not!
It was: What makes you happy when you're sad or upset? I figured we all get upset, and seeing what others do MAY help us find what works for us. So I’m sharing again here! :)
Here’s my Response:
This must be MEANT for me...I've been such a crabby-butt lately!
Here's what I do:
1. Whine to my mom...if she's not involved in the situation.
2. Eat something chocolaty!! Chocolate is my cure-all!
3. Write about it...either in blog form, or email...sometimes I actually use a REAL journal!! (go figure!)
4. Cry...usually when I'm alone and can have a good air-gulping session...works like a charm!
5. Watch one of my old stand-bys: French Kiss (why it makes me happy? I don't know!), Looney Tunes, Head Over Heels...the good stuff that makes me laugh my guts out!
6. Clean, or straighten things up.
7. Surf my favorite websites.
8. Listen to my favorite types of music...Tim McGraw or Church songs!
9. Pray. If none of the above work I get down on my knees and pray like there's no tomorrow!
Now it's your turn, what cheers you up!? Go ahead and share, then go and play TMM's game! :)
Monday, August 14, 2006
Friday night they had a dinner and program at a local hotel. It was fun seeing people who recognized Steve and him re-connecting with old friends. We plopped ourselves down at a table to await the night's events. We were talking with two of Steve's pals when a random girl came up to him, pointed and said, "Stephen _____!" We were quite shocked!! This girl was one of those in high school who was popular and quite nice to all she knew, but she never really ever talked to Steve! They ended up talking and having a good time. Then we ate the dinner, and sat back and enjoyed the attempts of the comedian/magician. I think our table was the only one paying any attention to him, and laughing at him. By the end of the program I was thoroughly bored, and begged to get to bed. Steve said there was someone he wanted to talk with who was on his way, so we waited for him. They had a cash bar there, and I watched as the drinkers stumbled off one by one. By the time his friend got there the room just REEKED of beer, and I was ready to leave. We went to his brother's place, and got ready for bed.
Instead of sleeping when we got there I stayed up and talked with his brother for an hour and a half. It's weird...I can talk better with his brother than he can, and Steve can talk better with my brothers than I can. So I got him talking about EVERYTHING that is going on in his life. I gave him my advice, and just hopes that he takes it.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
- I'm grateful for my faith. There are times when I get to feeling sorry for myself, but then I remember that I'm NOT alone! There is someone who totally understands everything I'm going through and is willing to help me through those rough times. I'm grateful for Him and that he loves me no matter what I've done or who I've become! He is my brother, and I love him for that!
- I'm grateful for a loving husband. He tries so hard to help me when I get weepy or upset. I know he's trying to help me when he offers his advice and that he wants me to be happy. He is a sweet man who truly cares about me and our son.
- I'm grateful that I was once able to get pregnant and that I was blessed with my son. Everyday that I see him, I realize what a miracle he is! He may act bratty at times, but he is my life's joy! He loves me, and tells me often that he does. He has shown me that I have more in me than I thought was there!
- I'm grateful for my mother. She is always there to help me laugh at myself, show me my mistakes, and just be there for me. She is my best friend (other than my sweet husband) and I can honestly say that I love her and I'm glad that we were put together as mother and daughter.
- I'm grateful I'm in relatively good health. I may have those few sick days, but I'm not in chronic pain everyday of my life. I can walk around, and take care of my son (and a few other children as well...) I'm glad I can move pain-free!
I'm feeling a little better. I'm going to make a longer list of things, and hope to post more at another time! I just need to stop internalizing EVERY little thing that I encounter in my life!
Friday, August 11, 2006
I think I'm crazy!! My cousin called me today and asked me if I can start watching her new baby on a permanent basis starting in 2 weeks. I said YES!! (Please don't throw those virtual tomatoes all at once!) I guess what cinched it for me was the fact that I'll only be watching him 2 days a week and those days will be Cameron free. With Cam going to school in a few weeks, I'll just be down to 2 kids, but now with baby J...the count is back to 3!! The nice thing is that it will add some more money to my dwindling funds...Hey!! I'm a contributing member of this family! *feeling proud*
I was reading through my normal blog reads for the day, and to my shock I found that a post I had commented on had magically changed. Now my very witty comments were no longer pertinent. *blushing* So I deleted them and commented appropriately! But just reading it made me feel frustration.
The basis of frustration would be seeming well wishers giving unwanted and unsolicited advice. I'm not saying I haven't done my damage in this area, because I've commented rudely before and have suffered from the consequences of that split-second thought. But as an infertile woman who's been trying for baby number 2 for going on 5 years now I related all too well to the "advice" that was given.
I was communicating with a dear friend from college via email. She had just announced that she was pregnant with baby number 2 and I was wishing her well, and updating her on my situation. I mentioned that we had been trying for several years for a baby and that I was in the process of seeing an herbologist who was helping us get pregnant. (I'd tried the clomid route and was UNIMPRESSED with the things my body had gone through on those drugs! I figured herbs are "natural.") Anyway, I didn't think much of it until I got her response. She said something to the effect that we shouldn't try so hard, if it was God's will, then it would happen. HOW COULD SHE!? Okay, so some of you may not understand the thoughts that I was, and feel now, just thinking about it. I was hurt. How is it she, someone who knows NOTHING of the pain I had felt be so passe about my feelings? How could she told me that I couldn't try? That I really SHOULDN'T try?! This coming from someone, who without even thinking about it, was pregnant so easily!? I felt betrayed by a friend. It hurt beyond words. I stared at my computer screen and tears blurred my vision.
It took me a LONG time to get over those feelings, but they're better. I still feel hurt, but it's not as deep.
I guess after reading that post I had relived those feelings and couldn't get out of town to enjoy my weekend without sharing here why I feel so strongly about that situation. I certainly hope I've not hurt anyone else's feelings with the comments I leave. If I do offend...please tell me...It's not my intention to hurt anyone!!
Now I'm really off...I swear!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
YOU STINK!! What is WRONG with you!? I have been addicted to NBC’s show America’s Got Talent, and thus far, I’ve LOVED every minute of it. Until tonight I was satisfied with the acts that had gotten through to the finals...yodeling girl: AWESOME! Dancing groups: COOL! Acapella singing guys: LOVE THEM!! But tonight you sorely disappointed me!
An Annoyed Voter
Tonight wasn’t JUST filled with major annoyances with my show, it was also full of fun. We are having a big youth thing going on where they have all kinds of activities to entertain children. As a part of that a local performing theater had a free show for Fred Garbo’s Inflatable Theater Co. We had gone to one of these shows years ago when Cam was two, and at that age he enjoyed the show minimally. We figured that with him being older, and understanding more of what’s going on around him that he’d LOVE it. He didn't disappoint us! Seeing his reaction to what was going on was priceless!
Basically, it’s a man and woman who climb into inflatable things...blocks, wheels, furnature, clothes....and they really do a good job of keeping the kids entertained. Three boys sitting behind us were commenting the whole time about who they thought was inside of the various objects. At the end of the show they throw out the blocks for the audience to hit and play with. If they ever come your way, I highly recommend seeing them!!
I’m also pretty much signing off for the weekend. We’re off to my husband’s 10 year high school reunion. Steve was hoping to get a hotel room for Friday night, but our pay checks disappeared before we even had them. So we’re going to be camping out at my brother-in-law’s apartment. That should be an interesting situation. He’s a bachelor and is a little weird. I love him, but I’ve never been THAT close to him. I hope this weekend lives up to my husband’s expectations.
He’s now begging me to come and play video games with him...I certainly hope that I will be awake enough to babysit early in the morning!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
The last 2 days have just worn me out! I've been babysitting the two kids I usually watch until 5:00 both nights. And since Cam and little L don't get along very well it's been a challenge for me in keeping my cool. (I have lost it a few times!) Otherwise life is good!
I thought I was going to have the next few days off from babysitting, but I was mistaken. Little L's dad just had surgery today and he's gonna need me to keep track of the kids for a few hours while he rests and recoups. I don't know what it is about men and getting sick or having surgery, but they turn into babies themselves. Don't get me wrong, I'm whiny when I get sick or have surgery too, but I have to keep going. There's no one to wait on me hand and foot. I'm the mom...Mom's aren't allowed to get sick!!
I can't believe that summer is nearly over. School is going to be starting back up in a few weeks, and at that time I'll find out what schedule Cam will have for Kindergarten. I don't feel old enough to have a kindergartner!! We decided that what's best for Cam is to go to the normal kindergarten, but have an aide who will help keep him on task. I'm supposed to call the principal sometime this week to confirm this arrangement, but do you think my sleep-deprived brain could remember that!? Ack!!
I truly hope I feel better soon! I don't know if I can survive this week if this schedule persists! Wish me luck!
Monday, August 07, 2006
Sunday, August 06, 2006
This is the closest we could get to the original 12 children as we could under the circumstances. Two were actually unable to make it, so their pictures were put in, so they wouldn't be left out!
I just laughed when this picture was snapped. They decided to take "funny face" pictures and my Aunt Judy decided to pick on younger brother John, by picking his nose. (Okay, so I'm weird!)
This is our version of the WHOLE stinkin' clan! We had every camera take ONE picture of the whole group. I don't think this one turned out too badly. This is why we need to get together to exchange the pictures....some are bound to be better than others...
This is JUST the grandchildren who showed up. There are many who aren't there, but as you can see...I come from a LARGE family! (Makes for fun times!)
This is one of the two shots our family got taken after the group shots were done. Why is my mom's mouth open like that!? OH! That reminds me...if you look closely, you'll notice we're wearing numbers on our shirts. At the last family reunion we came up with a number system for who goes with who. How it works is this: The first number is the original sibling's birth-order number...my mom is number "6", so our first number is 6. Then you take the second number from birth order after that....so my number is 6-1. Cam is 6-1-1...and so on.... My youngest brother is 6-6...he's determined to have 6 children so that his last child will be 6-6-6. What a goof!!
This is the last picture I'll share right now. This is our "nice" picture. My sister and her husband weren't able to make it to this part of the reunion, and my other brother was off doing...something. But I think it turned out nicely!
Like I said before, we had a ball, and I can't wait to get together with these people again! (If you want to see more pictures, you can look at my flickr account. I've used up most of my monthly allotment just uploading a FEW of the pictures!)
I apologize for the pixelly pictures...Dang that Blogger!! The clearer pictures are on my flickr account. Growl!